I feel like I can't do anything right and I need to vent about it. I love my husband and I really do try my best to help him, but he never seems satisfied. We've been married for 25 years and we've had our share of ups and downs, but lately he seems so irritated with me. I know that he didn't expect to be diagnosed with Lou Gehrig's disease, that he feels bad, and that it scares him. But I'm scared too and I have endless wells of empathy for him. I just can't seem to please him anymore. If I make supper, it's the wrong thing, even if it's his favorite chicken dish. When I'm helping with his physical therapy, he says I'm too pushy or that I'm rushing him through the exercises. I'm too loud or I'm too quiet. When I run the bathwater, it's either too hot or too cold. I push his wheelchair too fast or too slow. I just can't seem to get anything right when it comes to his care. My husband is so darn cranky. I wish he could find some moments of happiness despite the disease. I wish I still made him happy.
Thanks for letting me vent.