I grieve the connections I've lost now that I'm a better person. It may not be physical death, but the pain pierces deeply. Many regrets would surface when I would think back on my behavior. After a while, reflecting on what has happened only makes you realize things you could've done. Does this count as grief? Can a person grieve when they were the ones at fault in the first place? Usually, the feedback I get is that I deserved it. But because it's true, it's hard to express my side of emotion.